I woke up yesterday feeling relatively fine with a bit more energy than the day before. So of course my 'lets get back to normal' mode attempted to kick in. Our house is on the market and as we are disappearing for a fortnight I felt it was mandatory that I help with making sure all areas are tidy and clean before we go. Now I will say that the husband extraordinaire had already said 'do not on any account attempt to tidy - I will do this myself after work'. Not only that, I do possess two grown daughters one of which lives part time at home who are more than capable in helping.
Ah, what is it that wont let us be assisted? It was one reason I came out of hospital probably a day too soon. I was feeling incredibly guilty about the staff looking after me.
Anyway, I dusted the surfaces in 2 rooms, then decided it was time to try the car so drove 20 minutes into town to catch up with the girls for a coffee. Then over to daughters to pick up some bits. Then to the hardware store to find a beach umbrella ( ( I did take daughter with me to carry brolly). Then back home. And removed a load of washing off the line. I left it neatly folded by the line to be carried in by someone else( I'm not totally silly).
I wont recover if I try to live how I lived before. I must slow down and let others help me. I know they want to and I know they feel no resentment over it. It is my own feelings of guilt I have to get over.
So this morning I was thinking about things I was grateful for.
2. Family - I am blessed with a beautiful bunch of people around me.
3. Plastic chair - fits in shower cubicle to be able to sit at a moments notice and to not fall headlong into wall whilst attempting to shave legs. (low blood pressure and pressure from other parts...)
4. Comfortable couch in tv room with just the right height coffee table piled high with books, kindle, ipad, crochet and mandatory glass of water with paracetamol placed strategically close by.
5. Prunes
6. That I am in a position to be able to recuperate without the major stress of being the main income earner - I do feel for those women out there trying to do this by themselves with little or no help.
7. Multiple toilets in the house - result of drinking vast quantities of water to assist prunes and to rehydrate the body plus get rid of nasties from anesthetic.
8. And did I say prunes? Manna from heaven, I assure you.
For now, I'm off to gently go about cleaning the kitchen benches. I know, I know. But I have been sitting still for the last 40 minutes and I do have to do some exercise! :-)
x Julie